WIP Beta released A new *CITY* map - LOS INJURUS 2023-12-20

Jesus Christ I’m sorry that you been going through all that. I wish the best for you man. You deserve better people in your life.

 

Oh it is. You know it's messed when the people in lock-up are MUCH NICER to you than your own family, not to mention much more helpful and accomidating when you're having trouble getting around on occasion.
They say what doesn't kill you will make you stronger. Well that explains why 175~185lbs 5'10" male weighs nothing and is nearly defenseless when you got them Jackie-Chan hands. As they say: FAFO.
I'm so much more a lover than a fighter, but dang, who gotta be so insecure that they need to back the disabled guy into the corner of the bathroom he is trying very hard not to cry from the pain during cleaning?!
It's like "Do I look like the complaint dept?", maybe "Local resident pin-cushion" or something? *shakes head*
Not gonna lie made several good friends in lockup!
Also, used the 3 days I spent in the lockup to jump-start quitting smoking. It's been over 8 days since I had a cig. Yay! There's something positive, besides not currently being on-fire or anything like that.

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I WISH this was only some dumb story. My entire life has been full of this drama and I'm not even married! It's not supposed to have drama when you're not married.
Anyone need a HERMIT? I'm looking to do some hermitting. Lots and lots of hermitting. *holds up sign* WILL HERMIT FOR $$$$!
In-fact if anyone has a rental property surrounded by a moat full of alligators/crocodiles I'd be elated to come see it, it'd be PERFECT! I wouldn't even care if the local weather (or a previous curse) caused it to rain fire and rats 3 times a week (again couldn't be worse than life already) every week for eternity.
I'm gonna be that old guy in another 20 years yelling at the youngin's to 'GET OFF MY LAWN!'. If that's the extent of both my strife and interaction with the rest of society, I will be quite pleased to say the least of it.

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I will work on this as much or as little as possible, depending on my ability. I currently still have the ability to work on this but I've been extremely busy running around like a mad man as much as I'm able to.
If I can get a few hundred more bucks together I might just be able to get myself an apartment this month. I'd be set already but I had to pay the stupid bail money and still owe another 500$ more on it, or back in the clink I go.
HOWEVER, if I was to disappear for too long, I'd want the community to collectively work on it. Try and keep as much as possible of what I made or was trying to make, and add to it. Not just one person do something, but model up a lot and go put it somewhere in the level. Finish off a mine or something like that, you know, those things. Not try and do the whole project as one person like I've been an idiot for trying to do. I'm still an idiot regardless, but do know this thing isn't dead yet. I'm just straight dead-up honest, and when I FAIL at something, I will come right out and say I TRIED I FAILED. Now to pick up the mess that is my life. I keep the mop and bucket handy these days. Not even worth putting said mop and bucket away anymore. With the way things have been going I've been surprised if I so much as have time to change out the nasty rancid water every few days. *reeee-urrrr!!!* (fog horn).

Thanks bud, from another Christian, Thanks. That means every bit of what the words mean and so much more. Sometimes these things make me tear up when I read the things people write, but I'm okay with that, because it's a good kind of tear up. I'm going to be 44 in about 5 more weeks and just want to make it that far along without my heart exploding and without anyone else finding out about "That disabled dude got them Jackie Chan hands". I just try and show people love and make a good fun time for folks through video game mods and my censor-skirting witty banter that comes along with the progress blogs for them.
That said, my congregation is okay with me staying here in this lovely church for a few weeks as necessary as long as of-course I don't foul the place up or do anything unusually bad to it (which I would not do). If anything I need to be closer to God right now, and I've said a lot of prayers in the sanctuary here (in tears, mostly), and the alone-time (which could harm some) has done me wonders. I can't really complain about it here, aside of it not having a shower - but the locals in the congregation literally said JUST COME OVER SILLY, use our shower, be clean, happy, and do what you need to do you needn't feel bad or feel you need to pay us. Why can't my family just be even 10% as nice as the church folks are and not be vindictive scheming narcissists??? I know those words aren't Christian to say, but they're not insultory they're descriptive and very true.
I sure won't be spending any of the holidays with them. No way. Never again. I don't care what happens I just can't trust them anymore. When your own flesh/blood mother doesn't give a rat's behind about you being death-threatened or would pick a dog over your company, you know you don't rate too highly. I'm just sorry I gave them so much of my time and the last of my ability. Now when I can no longer do for them like I used to be able to, now I am cast to the curb as trash. That's fine though, because I need them much less than they need me, and the best part is they haven't figured this out yet. Finally at-least I am figuring out how to sleep again - no pills needed.
The most interesting part? The whole town DESPISES my 'family' now, the whole lot of them, and I didn't have to say/do a thing. People hear about it from everyone everywhere, small rural country-town America.
They need a coming to Jesus moment, and they need to be real with themselves and The Lord.
I don't have ill-will for anyone, but I'm not stopping them from face-planting as quick and thoroughly as I used to when I am too busy taking care of myself now. The things I needed to do on the house this spring were vital maintenance things that were already nearly overdue at the end when my health worsened. They will not enjoy being in that house when the structure is failing due to their sheer ignorance of running off the one person who did do what was required, and guess who also knows the building inspector? I won't have to intervene to either end, it'll become apparent to them that ignorance is not bliss.
I will work on this project as long as I'm able. Not sure how uploading will go. Will figure that out if I need to buy a data reload card for the tethering or if I just should use a USB Key and the library.
Well, back to fighting FLY-POCALYPSE here at the church. I got about 150 of them suckers last week and I think I've got about 30 so far this week and it's not even Tuesday yet. They might be feeding off the last of a wasp nest buried in one of the walls and coming in for warmth. That's what I'm thinking (building is 80 some years old, was rebuilt in the 1940's with cinder-block from the original log-building church from the 1850's).
I wish y'all the best, and say that if you think at all or at any rate that your life isn't great I INVITE YOU TO COME READ ABOUT MINE. You will learn to love your life and whatever ills it may appear to have in mere minutes or less!
When life gives you lemons, make lots of lemonade. When life gives you fire and rats.... I dunno, invest in Mcdonalds / Burger World franchise to use the meat in?
Anyone else's comments will be answered the next post I make, I think there's one that was cut off at the page-break that I've missed - and to you my friend, my apology.
Thank you folks for sticking with me even as I go through what always seems the worst patch in life. That said, being homeless (and/or being around prisoners!) is likely a lot healthier for me than being around my family is. So don't worry too hard.
--That is all for the moment.
-The Bob
EDIT: Buy better screen, the text on this one is AWFUL, SO HARD TO READ! It was a 11.99$ monitor though, and it certainly will display Beamng.the.game, or Rimworld, or Simcity 4, or Tank Wars (yeah the DOS game).

 

Yikes! This could be added as a side plot to an episode of Justified, and would fit just right.
"Reality is stranger than Fiction, because Fiction has to make sense." A quote I read somewhere years ago, that would be applicable in this situation.
I sincerely hope you get out of this in one piece, and get your life back on track.
Best regards from Sweden.

 

I wish you the best my friend, all of us americans can relate to how messed up our country is. you will be in my prayers

 

We're facing the standing army our fore-fathers warned us about.
Messed up is about the nicest phrase I've ever seen it put. Usually most people's description sounds more like an argument among sentient microwaves.
They didn't even ATTEMPT to take my side of things. Not even an attempt!!!
Literally a half dozen to dozen folks from the church who can go are going to the next court session if they can help it.

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Yeah well no one proof-read this messy plot that is my life. I know if I did, I sure wouldn't want to publish this mess let alone LIVE it. AHHHHH!
Where's the fourth wall, I want to bust it down and GET ME OUTTA HERE as Daffy Duck said.
I don't even want to stay in this state because my family is here. I just feel bad about leaving the church if I do that (so I would have to come back and visit AT LEAST monthly).
People hang their heads in shame when THEY hear what my family has done to me.
I don't know where the start and where to end. It's like an endlessly rotating merry-go-round full of crap, with samples slinging off every which way in all directions at all times. I mean seriously.
So if we wish to make light of how terrible this mess of a life is right now for the poor Bob... let's all place bets and see just HOW this is going to get worse! At-least we can have some fun watching the world burn, even if it's mine.
I'm almost looking, waiting with baited breath, for that stupid grand piano (or ACME Anvil) that's supposed to fall on me in nearly every scene. At-least maybe this scene will be OVER and I can come back nice and fresh in the next scene only to do it ALL OVER AGAIN (come to think of it, that's the story of most of the guests that were staying at the Iron Bar Hotel, they do frequent often, not just for the matching bracelets or free rides / all-expenses you-paid trip there).
Well, anything is probably better conversation than what I was doing at just past noon today. Admonishing the clerk at the Dollar General for being out of sliced RAT in the meat section... who started to say sorry and then it hit him that yes the customer just asked for rat and is mad you're out of it ... or are THEY out of it?
DUN DUN DUNNNNN!!! *The plot thickens*
Will the clerk ever manage to make it through the rest of the day with customers this bad? Will he even find out if the customer truly wanted rat in the first place?
Will the customer ever get his sliced rat and make the sandwich of his every (if questionable) desire?
Stay tuned for the NEXT EXITING EPISODE of The Bob's Life Sucks!
Hey at-least I can have fun making fun of it. There's that. I am so over it.
--Ugh. Are we there yet?
-The Bob
I mean next time we sit back and watch the world burn, someone at-least bring some refreshments first.

 

I still can't get my sliced rat at the dollar general that shall remain nameless; I'm still handing out slices of attitude about it, and Turkey just won't do.

In other good news, GOOD NEWS is that I don't have much to type because there ISN'T any good news.
Bad news, the nonreflective water looks like blue peptobismol. Maybe we need blue pepto bismol. There's food for thought.
No really, this looks like Half Life on my 1st 3DFX card, just a little better textures/resolution than the 640x480 that 4mb card would provide.
Back hurts too bad to do this much longer tonight. Tomorrow is another day. Starting to get through to my retired mother a bit - if only because dozens of people have called her as the town found out about what went down, and asked her or told her she's bonkers. We'll see where that goes... at-least fiction is written/made to be believable!!!
Support the Patreon if you can.
--That is all for now
-The Bob

 

Got my highway carved. Surely it's drivable but not sure how perfect it is. Will try it out before I sleep tonight. Couldn't fall asleep until 600 hours this morning.

So yeah, that's the new alignment, you can kinda see the old one. I haven't blended the terrain or anything yet. I'll see if I can get it figured out and get enough of that done.
I have some AI to straighten out or outright implement, and that's going to be the release, once I run the efficiency / resource tool on it.
It (the editor) hates my every being. Every time I touch it, it breaks.
-That is all
--The Bob
PLEASE SUPPORT THE PROJECT SO I CAN DO NEAT THINGS LIKE *LIVE IN A HOUSE*. YEA. Not kidding!

 

Let me know how it's going on 0.38.x as I don't have that over here yet.
I am using tethered mobile data, and I got about 2 weeks out of my 15gb and that was it.
That's OK though as I can't stay here any longer. It's going to be a rough few weeks being homeless in the dead of winter until the next check gets here.
Oh well, guess it's what I've earned, trusting my family and all (big mistake, it seems). I hope no one else's family is as evil as mine.
I thought it was something I did until it got to the point where anyone I told thought 'your family is bonkers, get AWAY from them!'.
Even the cops told me that around a decade ago. They were right, it seems. I'm sorry I didn't heed the warning.
Vindictive Narcissistic Man-haters. Use you up, drive you nuts, throw you away.
I will be a very happy permanently single man, who wouldn't touch a woman with his worst enemy's CENSORED if I ever survive this.
For all you alternative life-style folks, well that's not for me / not me, but I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND and could never hate.

I will upload this when I figure a way to do so.

 

i am sorry to hear that your homeless!!!

 

Yes, it genuinely sucks. Can't stand up for yourself in this country either, apparently that's illegal.
On another note, about 95% of the town is on my side and is somewhere between fairly annoyed to absolutely seething angry at my family for what they've done - because as far as anyone knows - I dedicated my life to helping others.
Now when I need help, the church is here, the pastor comes to see me 4~5 times a week, my own mother... barely once if at all and only if she has something else to do. In-fact my mother comes to see me the 2nd least out of ANYONE at the church. What gives? Who needs enemies?
God and St. Peter can sort them out, it's not my job. I am not the Judge, DA, Jury, Executioner, etc, nor am I to be acting as one.
They must live with themselves. What would I do differently next time? Just stick to my bare hands, unfortunately for anyone on the other end of it, that won't be very good and is likely the worst choice for them.
I proudly told the judge and the public defender, that if THIS is civilized society, where if someone comes at you with a raised hammer, and death threatens you, and you can't go get a weapon to defend yourself on your own property, then lock me up and throw away the key because I WANT NO PART OF THIS SOCIETY, Y'ALL ARE NUTS AND HAVE WELL LOST THE PLOT. It's a stand your ground state, but that means nothing.
Welcome to Murica. Land of the what? Oh. Yeah. Free MY ARSE!
That said, when you can get right up on someone or they get in your face, and they start moving their hands and you block every last movement they make with them, both at once, without breaking the death glare deep into their eyes/soul, it will emasculate them and scare the ever loving you-know-what out of your opponent. Do it while walking them right back where they came from for extra credit (well, best to avoid this, really, don't be like The Bob who'd rather stand up for himself, become homeless, have no family except his church family, and end up in legal hot water VS not stand up for himself).
The courts are a money maker and nothing more. It's sick. Definitely a two-tiered justice system for those that have and those that have not.
Thank-you for caring, sorry for the rant, but many thanks.

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I had a little time to work on this. It's going to be mid-january before I have time and possibly a place to work on this again unless something comes up.

Remember someone mentioned it went from 3 to 2 lanes all of a sudden when driving counter-clockwise around the outer loop? Yeah, that; that thing is fixed up nice. Don't have a LANE ENDS or MERGE LEFT sign variety. Will have to fix that in the future. The AI is updated here to follow the lane adjustment.
Newly replaced section of highway that I did the other week might be a bit rough and unrefined but it will do the trick of connecting the highway for now, so bear with me if there's some uneven spots. It's a net-gain and at-least it has a median barrier now.

A bit uneven here. Not perfect. Drive with care and caution please through the new area. To get this more perfect means I need a better setup here. This small screen I can't really tell what I'm doing so well thus can't see to get it perfect. I was unable to grab my 42" TV I used for a monitor when I got booted out of my own house, so I have this thing I got from the GoodWill thrift shop for 12.99$. Hey, it's a monitor. I have a 2nd screen I paid 7.99$ for that's a little smaller but is a lot sharper. This setup will get the job done though, barely, but it'll do.
I'm just fit to be tied that I can't seem to get anywhere lately with trying to get an apartment. Everything is so expensive and the one place I COULD get into is a total scam with all the mandatory fees they charge (and an hour from my church), and then tack on a convenience fee for all the fees they charge (wtf? I'm NOT kidding), where the 500$ rent becomes nearly 800$ after they charge 100$ a month for electric, 60$ a month for water (!?), 25$ laundromat access fee, 80$ TV/Internet charge, 21$ home automation charge so they don't need to give you a key but have a digital / hackable lock, and then a 12.99$ fee to SELL YOU an AIR FILTER for THEIR HVAC unit they're renting you in the apartment PER MONTH, and then a convenience fee of 15.99$ for ALL IN ONE billing. Plus 5% charge if you pay by credit card at the office, or a 16$ charge if you pay through the portal using a credit card. It's 815$ to rent that 500$ apartment. A 5000 sq/ft house doesn't use 60$ in water a month and uses around 250~275$ in electric in the summer when the DUAL commercial-grade AC units are cranking and 5 people live in it. What's one person in a 650~700 sq/ft apartment going to use per month, about 80$ max? It's such a SCAM.
Think I'm kidding? Stevensrentals.com OH DEAR LOOK AT THEM ON YELP, ONE OR TWO STARS, WHAT A SHOCKER! Don't rent there!!!
Seriously. The tenant I talked to says her poor (wonderful little thing) cat goes bonkers when the stray cats in the crawl space under the floor of her apartment are REPRODUCING and the sound travels through the floor rather well.
Can you imagine that sound? Howling screaming cats. While you're sleeping. While your day dreaming, on the toilet! While you're trying to shower. While you're trying to think as if that's not difficult enough in today's crazy fast paced always-connected world.
Sheesh.
Yeah not sure I want to rent there. Last resort. It's bad. I don't even have any furniture really. I have... a chair.
If I fail to find a place, and I don't want to or cannot for whatever reason rent there, I will just ask the probation officer to voluntarily go back to confinement in Jail, so that I have SOMEWHERE to go, and when I get out (weeks, months, or up to half a year or less), then I can have money saved up and get a place. So it would mean some more hiatus from this project BUT at-least I'll be housed, fed, and well that's more than I can say that my own family cares for THIS disabled person.
Yes, I said it, I'd actually, willingly walk into a jail - especially a PRISON where there's REAL amenities and a weight-lifting area and real programs - just to be housed.
If you are in the CENTRAL OR EASTERN TENNESSEE AREA, AND HAVE A ROOM TO SPARE, OR EVEN TO SHARE, WITH A 40-SOME YEAR-OLD THAT DOESN'T SNORE MUCH AT ALL, THE BOB ISN'T LOUD, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. I will gladly help pay costs anywhere I live. If you can manage it, please donate. Increases to donation amount are immediately charged, decreases will recur when it's 30 days from when you last adjusted the amount up or paid (usually the 1st of the month if you haven't changed it recently) but you keep your increased tier until it's been 30 days from the date of charge if you decrease the amount.
If you want to do a one-off donation and you're already donating, INCREASE the amount by the difference to the larger amount you want and can afford to give. Leave it like that for a week. then come back and set it back to what you are comfortable doing monthly (like 5$ or 10$ or even 2$) that next week. This way you won't get charged twice.
Seriously. I'd hate to think of this as my last few lines of text for the next 6+ months. Will try to back up the level before I do whatever.
I have to download 0.38, hopefully not run out of data, then upload the level and not run out of data after running the make-level-lighter stuff on it so that it doesn't have duped resources. If it works, it works yay, if it doesn't, well that's all I can do for a while. It will be weeks before I can post again unless there's some sort of miracle. Thanks to donations thus far I was able to re-register the car so it doesn't expire next week, and get some extra groceries. I have about half a grand saved up for 1st months rent and I get paid around the new year. However, that's roughly 12 days away. I don't know what to do with myself until then, I will be homeless. I run out of time to stay here on Monday, since the pastor said he was becoming worried someone might get mad I'm staying here at the church for around 3½ weeks now, so I told him I should go then.
Look, basically, if you can help, please do so. I really REALLY need it. If you can't, I totally get it, many people aren't in much better condition than me and that is the cold hard truth.
However, I will do whatever I can to manage the situation as best as possible to keep it from becoming worse.
Just do one thing, DO have a Merry Christmas, Happy Holiday and all and try not to worry too much about me, as that doesn't do too much good any-who, other than detract from your day. I wouldn't want that.
-That is all
-The Bob.