why is my game so broken

i cant load west coast, italy, east coast and probably a few more maps with my 120ish out of 340 mods activated
no idea why
ive reinstalled beam, cleared my cache, verified file integrity and a ton of other stuff
the game was fine with all 300+ mods before the update an now the game is basically unplayable
when i load any of the maps i mentioned (the main ones i play on) i go through the loading screen perfectly fine, but once the loading ends, i get all my ui apps and sound but theres no game, just the main menu screen photos
somebody please help i am losing my mind

 

Yes, the update changes game files that can break mods. The reason the game disables all of your mods after a major update is to avoid the exact issue that you're having.

 

yeah i know that but i basically cant play the game without them

 

disable your mods and wait for the creators to update them.
clear cache and maybe play vanilla BeamNG.